Struggling with eating disorders

Struggling with eating disorders
Spread the love

Hi, my name is Stephanie and along with mental health struggles like Bipolar 1, neurological stuff like adhd, and autism I have an eating disorder. I have anorexia. I am struggling with eating disorders. Right now it is really bad!

I have struggled with my eating disorder for year and years. I restrict food, I over exercise and I make myself sick. I make myself believe I am not worthy of the food I eat. Or rather what little I can stomach.

I will make food and only be able to eat a few bites before feeling like a bloated hippo. I feel disgusted and gross. I also binge eat too as a result of never eating which makes me super tired and sick.

I would love to eat a meal with out these feelings. But, I look in the mirror I hate what I see. I see an overwhelming obese version of myself. Maybe one day I will be better. Right now? No.

Leave a Reply

Back to top
%d bloggers like this: